The name of the game is change!

i have different blogs in mind for the next few days...or weeks. after my last one i was going to post one titled "thaw" since it's now summer. the snow has been long gone and the leaves have been here for a while. oh well! better late than never i suppose. so the name of the game is change...and not just the seasons! it's truly amazing how after 27 and a half years of one dream and one goal after another, my visions can keep changing! i guess there's nothing wrong with that! after tommy and i broke up, i was set on a plan...self discovery (again) and self indulgence. i discovered my depression had gotten out of control and took the steps to take control...praise for pristiq! i indulged in lots of time with tommy...i embraced the fact that he indeed became my very best friend during the course of our relationship. i fought the path that we were following again...that is being a couple...but if felt good and changes were happening...so this happened...



smiles and kisses...lots. how can you resist love? i'm sure there are ways...but it's hard to resist your best friend and someone you know and who knows you so well. someone who calms you with a touch. someone who brings you flowers just because. someone who makes you happy and someone you want to make happy in return. i believe our love is just too strong to move past. i believe the steps tommy is taking for himself will strengthen our relationship. i'm proud of these steps...



he has sworn into the navy and leaves for boot camp on september 7th. (p.s. i feel bad for the swear in captain's mid expression face but i was a little too intimidated to ask to take another picture!) only 250,000 applicants into the military are accepted out of 600,000 a year. i learned that this day! it was a long process for tommy, but he stayed optimistic and focused. so this summer i will be spending as much time as possible with him. i don't want to even think about what i'm going to do and how i'm going to feel while he's away. but he'll be strong and i'll be strong and i'll have this to kind of help me...





tattoos may seem silly to some people but they are treasures for me. this is based off the warrior symbol for breast cancer awareness. my grandma has been in remission for 2 years from breast cancer. she doesn't have to do chemo while she's in remission but she does a "maintenance" treatment every 3 weeks. this tattoo is for her and also a representation of all the "battles" the people i love face...and all the battles i face. tattoos give me strength. this is my most meaningful one yet. i know i will look to it often for strength...especially while tommy is away! :)

i do plan on more posts than i have been doing...i'll still do the "thaw" one as well! i still have plans in mind for this blog and hope that i am able to share those with you soon. until then...i hope everyone is enjoying their summers and staying cool! wear sunscreen people!!!